Thoughts From Scolaw

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Time To Think

It has been a few days since I posted anything to this blog, but I took some time to think about what was ahead for me in life. The life I struggle with everyday is one of boredom and sadness, if I let it get to me. You see, I haven't been able to hold a job for almost a year now, due to a disabling form of pain acquired from two herniated discs. After four surgeries to somehow correct the intensity of pain, nothing worked. At least the Doctors came out of it like bandits.

What is left in my back and right leg is excruciating pain from permanent damage in the sciatica nerve, running from hip to foot. God knows I would never wish this on anyone, not even my worst enemy, though I do have a few. It takes away the enjoyment of life and renders me helpless by not being one-hundred percent to do the things I used to love to do. Even so much as showing my family the love that they are deserving of is strained.

I'm sure some of you have woke up with back pain before. For a few days it hurts like hell, then goes away with no further complications. Such was not the case with me. After having surgery performed in 1994 on a herniated disc, the Doctor(?)(whom I later found out was not board certified to do surgery, then committed suicide because of mounting problems with divorce, gambling debts and tax evasion) did not take the disc out. Instead, he cut away the part of the herniated disc that was putting pressure on the nerve. Problem being, he didn't cut enough of it to stay off the nerve. Long story short, continued problems with my back, until it got to the point to where I couldn't walk very well. The nerve stayed pinched for 8 years, thus resulting in permanent nerve damage.

I was angry for awhile. Angry at the fact that I put my trust into this Doctor(?) to solve my problem. Angry at God for doing this to me. Angry at my family for having to tend to me, whereas I was very independent before. Angry at losing the way of life I was used to. Angry at everyone I saw who could walk, sit or lay down without pain. I was depressed beyond depressed, and considered ways to end the pain. Could I kill myself? Absolutely not. I have 3 reasons not to consider this. Could I amputate my leg, thereby solving the problem? It was an option I pondered on. People who are amputees have a better shot at finding work than I do in my present state. At least they are out of pain, and can work around their disability. I can only take pain pills, anti-depressants and muscle relaxers to get me through the day.

So, that is where I am at. I just hit 40 a couple of months ago, and that fact adds to an already scrambled brain. What can a 40 year old man do at this point of his life? The only regret I have from my younger days was not getting a college degree in something, even if it was tiddly-winks. At least it would be something to fall back on. The search continues for that perfect job that meets the high standards I set for myself. Maybe I need to lower the bar a little, start slow, and build up to the climax. Even doing it that way is painful. I expect to come out with guns blazing, and have everything just perfect in no time at all. Not in this day in age. I should know better. But, the saga continues, so stay tuned for more insight into my never-ending grasp for perfection.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

A Street Full of Latinos'

Monday's rally/protest in the streets of America was a show of unity. This unity was comprised of legal and illegal immigrants, all fighting for one thing: To ensure that the illegal ones are put to the head of the line at the immigration offices.

Never mind that the aliens are on our grounds because they chose to come here in an illegal manner. Never mind that the illegals are cramping our healthcare facilities, receiving free services for their ailments. Never mind the fact the illegals are taking America's good paying jobs, and driving wages for the rest of us down sharply. Never mind that those who used to have these good paying jobs are now forced to choose another career because of employers demand for cheap labor. Never mind that Snicker Bush is pro-corporation, and is waging an effort to appease the corporations by giving them cheap labor, which in turn gives them higher profits.

Why won't our Government listen to the citizens who voted them into office? What will it take for our voices to be heard? From all polls taken to this point, the majority of Americans want first, and foremost a secure border by land and sea. Post 9/11 thinking only backs up this demand. There should be no reason, nor should there be any thought of going around this demand. By leaving our borders porous, without additional funding to speed up the process of hiring more border agents and technology to prevent illegal crossings is inexcusable.

Secondly, we want the illegals who are here to be rounded up and deported in a quick and decisive manner. No ifs, ands or buts. Get them out of here now. As I wrote in a previous blog, the Government has missed its golden moment to show us that they indeed are serious about who comes into our country and who does not. With millions of Latinos' lining the streets, rallying for their cause to keep illegals in America, there should have been National Guard and ICE representatives there taking names and handcuffing those who don't belong here.

The lack of enforcement is a telling tale. Our government doesn't care about us in the middle class or the poor Americans. They exists for corporations and big business, and will provide the world for them with increasing consequences for the rest of us. Our backs have been broken. Oil companies receiving record profits, with tax cuts still being given to them, even though gas prices are at an all-time high. Now, with little being done to curb the raping of our land by cheap labor, we stand to lose alot more. Gloves should come off America. It is time to fight for what we have left. Call your representatives and let them know how you feel. Tell them that our beloved country is headed for disaster if our borders are not secured. Tell them that your vote will go to only the ones who promise to protect us.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

The End of An Enigma

Playing on the Political Field has always brought about a flurry of high powered wanna-be's who are destined to rule every aspect of our daily lives. Just as in any game, there will always be winners, and there will always be losers. To be on the winning side, a person must be willing to step on anyone who even dares to get in the way, whether they are friend or foe.

Along with the grasp for the almighty power, ones ethics come into play. You either choose to abide by the rules of the game, or you cheat your way towards the goal line. Those who choose to win at all cost will lie, steal, bribe, partake in illegal mannerisms all while smiling to you. It is such a world of hypocrisy and fakeness that ultimately fools a person into a stupor. It is the brainwashing of the sheep that choose to follow, rather than lead their own paths.

So, it is with great pleasure that the news of Tom Delay stepping down from the ranks of the Republican Party is finally heard. Mr. Delay has carried the Republicans for many years now, and with his high ranking fanagling of the rules, he alone has cast a huge cloud of doubt onto politics. No doubt that the biggest scandal to hit DC in awhile has ensnared Mr. Delay and a large number of his associates and friends. It was time to hit the panic button, as his tribulations of deceit are being played out in Texas courtrooms.

It is said that "absolute power brings corruption, absolute". No words ring more true than these. This bunch of Republicans in DC have overstayed their welcome, with nearly 12 years of reigning over the Capital. In those years, we have gone from everyone working together, to a near desertion of casual conversation. No longer can anything get done on the floor without some form of bickering or backstabbing. This is not how our house is supposed to run.

To Mr. Delay, I say good riddance. It is my sincerest wish that you get everything that is coming to you. You call yourself a Christian, but your actions have been far from Christian-like. My wish for you is to spend the rest of your natural life behind bars with the rest of your kind, and in the end, we all know who will give you the final judgement. The best you can do is apologize to those you have stepped on, but don't expect much forgiveness. With these words, I pronounce the end of an enigma.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Who Needs Ethics?

Confronted with an ever-growing web of deceit, our "leaders" in DC decided not only want to police themselves, but shutout any outside, bi-partisan group of citizens from taking part in their schemes.

We, as a Nation have become increasingly political in nature. It is no longer who we think will do the best job, rather it comes down to keeping their party in office the longest. As proven by past actions, such as Newt Gingrich, who fought tooth and nail to impeach President Bill Clinton, a great American, for what I deem a personal matter between him and Hillary.

What Mr. Gingrich did not want us to find out, though, was that he himself was having an extramarital affair. The same offense he was convicting our President for was gnawing at his own personal life. What Mr. Gingrich quickly found out was that what is good for the goose is good for the gander. His own ethically impaired judgement was called into question, and was forced to step down from his leadership role for the Republicans.

Everyone understands that no one single person on this Earth is perfect. But, we hold our Government to a higher standard, and fully expect our "elected" or "selected" officials to behave themselves on our dollar. We expect our Representatives to listen to the public, which we find is increasingly on the decline, and vote into law the rules by which we can all agree with.

This process is supposed to include all parties alike, and bring a bill out that is inclusive.
Time and time again, with this administration and the Republican stronghold, bills have been brought out that Democrats were shutout of, with no attachments or amendments being allowed to be voted on. Where is the fairness in this?

There are so many instances of unethical behavior in our Government, it is hard to keep up. When we allow our leaders to govern themselves, we will get absolutely nothing in return. They will continue to get away with their behavior, continue to give themselves payraises while gutting social departments, continue their under-the-table dealings with lobbyists, and continue shutting out the political process. It is our duty as Americans, to strengthen our leaders by holding them accountable for their actions, and demand inclusiveness by the public to make sure they are abiding by the law.